Love Comes Softly

I used to think I had things figured out.  I had a time-line set for my life and I tried to fit myself and others into it.  The problem with that was that my plan got yanked out from under my feet.  And with my time-line went my future, and I had nothing to fall back on.
Well in the past few months I've been growing, changing, and searching.  I have also been praying.  It's nothing big or fancy.  I don't go to church more often or study the bible.  I just bring my life to God every day.  My successes, my failures, my thoughts, my questions.  And I thank him for things.
In the past two weeks I've been feeling this incredible new zeal for life, and I haven't been able to put my finger on exactly where it came from or why it happened.  But tonight I was laying in bed and I realized the answer that's been creeping up all along.  God.  God is the one that took me from a broken life to one full of passion and zeal.  He's also the one that continues to bring me through tough situations and painful emotions.  But even more than that He helps me recognize and appreciate what I have and what I've been given.  And I had to get my computer back out and tell everyone!  I love God!  He's the one I need to fall back on!  And I just have so much peace inside of me.  I realize now that I don't need to worry about the things I used to think were so important.  Not because I don't care anymore, but because I don't need to care anymore.  God is and always will take care of me.  I just have to quit trying to do things myself.
I chose this picture to put in my blog today for a specific reason.  This is my neighbor Oscar and he's 4 years old.  I have a theory that children are the closest to God, which is why people are drawn to them.  Why? You ask?  One of the reasons is that they are so incredibly innocent.  Their innocence is just completely irresistible.  I can't help but smile like a huge dork every time I see a child.  Another is because children are dependent.  They don't have the attitude that they can and should do everything on their own.  I think adults grow up and forget that a lot.  I know I forgot I needed God.  The final reason I can think of right now before I go to bed is that childrens' minds are like the universe.  They have an enormous capacity and no limit.  An all-powerful man who loves them unconditionally and lives in the sky doesn't sound so crazy to them.
So anyways I'm officially going to bed now.  I just wanted to share my feelings!  And besides, I got so happy I couldn't sleep anyways!  Also Love Comes Softly is an actual book that I love and I think it's worth reading!